EXO CHEN!!!!!!!

KIM JONG DAE 
warning: Do not read if you cannot stand a fangirl's confession



He is my bias from EXO. The guy who completely pushed all of my negative perspective of Kpop into the sea, or I would say the whole group, EXO themselves. lol


Considering that my eyes are settling down on two guys, Kai and you, Chen (like he will read this xD) its hard to prioritise either of you and in the end I will lose.

Kai and his dancing charms always steal my attention but you then emerged, diverting my attention (sweetly without me realizing) away from him making me drooling over you outstandingly remarkable vocals ability.

Oppa saranghae! Even if I cant meet you, you will always be a guy with special place in my heart! SARANGHAE!

Anyways, this a post of #fangirling and any Chen lovers or EXO-L who wish to join me, please do so! HAHAH.

Look at this cute collage (not my photo, from Google)

See! My oppa so cute I want him to be my teacher so I would be inspired to go to class everydayy! UWAAAA 

Sekitar Aku

SEKITAR AKU #1

Catan 19 September 2014

Persekitaran aku mungkin tidak begitu menghairahkan sebagaimana golongan elit menjalani kehidupan mereka. Tetapi ia sudah pun mencukupi bagiku untuk terseludup masuk ke fantasi yang aku reka, dinamakan Dunia Langkah Suka diambil daripada sebuah buku.

Dunia Langkah Suka, dunia yang didiami oleh aku dan rakan-rakan yang terdekat. Misi, masalah dan impian diberes bersama. Seolah-olah perjanjian sedarah telah kami lakukan dan iklankan di akhbar tempatan.

Apabila ada pasangan kekasih yang cocok, pasti akan ada mata merah yang punya perasaan iri hati. Dalam kes ini aku namakan sang mata merah Samurai.(Tidak ada kaitan dengan yang hidup atau mati). Sahabat akan memapah bahu tika  terjatuh, membangkitkan harapan yang hampir terkubur.

Samurai yang dikatakan cuba menjadi kacang hantu diantara hubungan kawanku telah meberi impak yang besar. Tidak ada lagi kenyitan mata dari kekasih sahabatku tika dia menjalankan tugas. Dunia Langkah Suka diselimuti kemuraman. Ribut yang melanda tidak keruan. Memberiku jentikan-jentikan resah tatkala wajah sahabatku bertukar menjadi kosong apabila bertentangan mata dengan kekasihnya.

Harapanku pada malam ini ialah hubungan mereka yang tercalar dapat dibaiki sebelum ribut melanda lagi. Yang pasti, aku akan ada untuk sahabatku. Semangat setiakawan tidak akan dilupakan sesekali aku dipinggirkan. Akan aku cari jalan menghapus Samurai.

Kegembiraan Dunia Langkah Suka akan kembali.

akurimaujambu. xx

Chasing you.

Chasing you 


Life is about a chase.
Chase that is endless to those who are prone to being drowned.
Drowned into the darkness of dreams.
Dreams that neither to be known good or bad.

It is a chase.
Full of struggles to those who are 'alive'.
For to live is the rarest thing.
Most exists and that is it.

Prove that you are worth the chase.
Just another stranger you are, I will say.

You do not give things cheaply.
It is not a 'thing' that I gave.

You chase, chase and chase but fall in the end.
After all it is just a chase. Chase does not determine you getting it.

Not everything goes in your way.
Goodluck for your own chase. It does not matter the type of chase you are chasing. Even though if you fall, the chase has thought you something.

akurimaujambu. xx 

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Watermark and My Birthday!

Happy pills and ecstatic.



Losing my phone was surely was not a great way of celebrating the month of my birthday. What is fun is that, praise to god things have been improving. Beyond my league, anyways considering I was 'disturbed" a few months ago.

Instagram is my way of checking you after losing my phone. My previous phone held both good and bad memories. Meeting you, rejection, nonsensical arguments and my poetry. I was drowned in a pool of pride seeing your Insta photos with your new watermark. Edgy yet simple it is. I miss you.

18th. I turned a year older. A year with much more new experience waiting, I hope. I could not help but to think if any wishes was actually sent to me from you, knowing the fact that your sister's birthday is just two days apart from mine. My bias from EXO who shares the same month as me, Kim Jong Dae known as Chen is nailed onto my mind. Hard. His angular features reminded me of you. Your flashing and dazzling smile.

I miss you.
Your last day of school will be my nightmare.
A growl signalling me that you and I no longer have chance.
A poetry and a collage will be waiting for you.
It is for you to treasure it.
Safely in your heavenly boundaries that I long to be in.

Always a gem you are.
In the darkness shining my life.
Igniting every hope that is shuttered.

akurimaujambu  

Weirdly pathetic

ME

ME

ME


Pardon if this entry is worthless. Im on my holidays. Reading is what that kept me awake. If I am not eating or reading, you will find me sleeping. Dosing off every conversation my family starts. The lust to communicate, write or even read is not there. Things seems harder. Am I depressed?

I am. All the symptoms I have been having for the past 6 months is killing me. I feel hopeless and believe it or not this entry alone takes 5 days...

Finding myself on my way back to lord is the greatest discovery. Consistency shall pursue I wish.

For ease is only revealed after hardships being torn apart from it.

akurimaujambu. xx

Inspiration

Women Of Colour


When people are busy trying to search for supplements or products that could lighten their skin they left the importance of gratitude toward how nature made us. Beauty shall fade as we age.

Lupita Nyong'O the women dressed in sky-blue is. Amazing yet genuine smile she has plastered on her face. But its not her exquisite smile yet breathtaking look we are discussing here. Looks does not define you. It is nothing but skin deep. It is sad knowing that some pays so much for compliments when they cost nothing. Best manners with pride stained in addition is the best. Modern world has successfully swept both women and man into falling into the deathly-hallowed valleys. I mean it. Most no longer have their judgement on the personality. Ironic and pathetic isnt our world is? 

Experience is indeed the best teacher. By no means this is a vent of anger.But, I was once rejected without that someone truly understanding how my thoughts or actions define me. He was fooled by her beauty. For I am just a girl under a shabby cloak. That indeed displayed his true-colours. Cynical. 

She has achieved so many things that actually entitled her the most beautiful women award. True that some of you reading this might have experience or attain more. But, always remember that not everything needs to be appreciated by the crowd or the world. It is just her fate to achieve the fame and respect. When a hard step is done, that is called sacrifice. Life that often has rainbows, sprinkles of glitters, marshmallows or any other heavenly-thoughts you could think of has sacrifices, thorns and pain beneath it. The speech delivered was nothing but perfection, as a teenager, insecurities is a necessity for us to surpass. And what will make you stand-out from the others is when you did it-whole-heartedly pushed through it.

So, stop doubting yourself for a thousand of probabilities would not make one truth. Believe in yourself- regard it as a hazardous weapon against insecurities and good luck.

akurimaujambu.Mun.Goodluck.xx                                                                                                       

Update about life

Sweetness trying to squeeze in

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Ba_WoSZXvw (listen to it as you read this okay? xx)

Its been a long time since my last entry but hey! Im back. 

Its a little bit on a down side side which I would prefer potraying only in my internet life because being a downer will only lead you to misery. Sometimes the solution to problems is to just outrun expectations. Expectations high or not are always the ones that drives us up the wall.

Having my results revealed leaved me speechless. Not that bad but unrealistic expectations overcome my gratitude for my latest results.

Sweetness from my relationships with my dearly-loved girlfriends is finally savouring. Thanking god Im now. Anywho, my always loved quote which is confidentially kept in my journal is:

                        "May be a successor a genius but always a failure a heartless soul is".

                                                                                                                          nyrahlily

My love life is still in an unconditionally type I would consider. Its too insane for me to think about it. Couldnt  life bring anything more? I hope not. He is as firm as ever with his decision; changing schools next year. Have I moved on, probably not. Its getting harder to when his gaze meet mine everyday? Should I give him my Message To Future letter? Too cliche and touche.

Anywho, I would like to wish goodluck to those who are in their pursue to happiness or are still in mosaic of contradictions. I love myself and all around me and that includes anyone reading this.

akurimaujambu.Mun. 

Goodluck. xx