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Asslamualaikum everybodeyhh!


Okay, aku serious tak tau nak mula dari mana sebab aku memang sumpah tak plan nak update blog. Lately Allah dah anugerahkan aku kenangan yang manis-manis macam gula so aku cuma update kat journal, jangan marah okay! hahaha


Sejak aku dapat those happy moments, rindu pulak aku kat kenangan aku berjiwang menangis di tepi tingkap kereta. Boleh bayangkan ke tidak? LOL. Aku rindu pun sebab aku dah macam tak ada buah fikiran yang menarik yang aku boleh kembangkan cerita darinya. Sebenarnya, aku tak perasan pun yang idea aku makin merosot until one of my friends cakap "Mana Melayu kau?!?!" PAM! Tersentak jap aku dari rehat aku.


Aku pun balik apa lagi, check semua draft esei yang aku have written this year. Memang betul cakap the latter, lain sangat. Esei aku semuanya dah ada unsur-unsur... Kematangan! HAHAH suspend tak? hikhik. Confirm korang sekarang ni dah ingat aku world angkat bakul sendiri, tapi bila aku ingat balik conversation aku dengan kawan aku tadi... Aku cuma berbahasa Inggeris tak terludah pun ayat bahasa Melayu, jadi my friend..."Mana Melayu kau?!?!"


moral of the story; cermin diri dulu sebelum menilai orang lain.


okay tu jelahh untuk niari... BUBBYEEEE!!!



wait, doakan aku untuk peperiksaan pertengahun aku, okay? THANK YOU.

and goodluck. xx

Update!

Update!✌


Aku sekarang ni dah keruan, tak tau dari mana nak mulakan. Aku update blog ni secara kerap kannn?  HAHAH.

Sejak ketiadaan saudari di alam maya ni, sebenarnya banyak benda dah terjadi. Friendship yang aku ingat akan last sebenarnya tak akan jadi sebab perbezaan yang ketara tetap kasih itu masih ada,okay? Sebagai seorang yang suka exaggerate, drama queen kat rumah,  bila aku cakap banyak korang jangan tak caye pulak.


Jadi hari ni aku nak make up to a blogpost yang aku update tentang diri ini. Sekarang dah jejak form 3, barulah aku rasa sesaknya masa itu (ewahh, ayat pun dah matang. Hikhik) ditambah pula aku gagal periksa Maths. Sobs

Kali ni betul betul aku terduduk. Masa naik sekolah bulan satu tu, ingat lama sangat lah nak periksa tengah penggal (CA1) Tapi sangkaan diri ini salah. TUP TAP TUP TAP dah duduk kat dalam kelas buat periksa. Alahaii. Nak ditambah kesalan gagal Maths tu ialah dimana markah aku yang lain tu boleh lah tahan untuk meletup macam fireworks. Cewahh nak up je ayat. Dorongan semata-mata.

Jadi, sempena aku celebrate kegagalan aku ni dengan berazam untuk belajar bersungguh untuk periksa besar setengah tahun n,  aku akan share journey aku dengan kengkawan yang InshaAllah akan mendorong aku kepada Allah dan pelajaran. Afterall, that is what a student life consists of, isnt it? Please make dua for me, friends. Aku betul Betul nak dapat markah dedulu aku balik hahah.

Korang pulak, bila nak sedar?

Moral, selagi korang masih berdiri ni buat lah apa yang patut jangan sampai terduduk baru nak mula. Huhuu sedih.

Wasalam and goodluck my babeyhh <3

FOCUS

FOCUS


Since it is the beginning of holiday I would like to settle down and share with you my current progress in life. Never did I thought that a book could actually boost my spirit to see things in my life in a better way.

The absence of my hand phone during last two months definitely left me a huge impact. I now realize that focusing on what we have shall bring us the feeling of gratitude hence when we believe in it, Allah will help us.

I am amidst of reading Dr Sheikh's book on his journey to space but so far a key point that he instilled in every page knots me in the conclusion to stay track (focus) in life. Be it studies, sports, relationships, etc. Focus will help us decipher the goal of our doings that can invite unexpected memorable happenings during the journey to the goal. Once one reaches the goal with focus, surely shall he miss the journey and the goal that he managed to accomplish will inspire him to do more. In short, one will never reach his goal (One with higher motivation). Reading his book make me realize that succeeding in life is all about a will and we sometimes determine the luck we are going to receive.

Adding to that, his outstanding evaluation towards his parents awakens me from my comfort zone; to never think that what I did for my parents is enough. His way of socialising and projecting himself is too amazing, stranding me in awe.

The takeaway from this book is focus

That is all for this entry. I hope the motivation that I am feeling shall be virtually send to all of you. Stay focus and goodluck. xx

akurimaujambu

Randomness Overload

EX
EXA
EXAM
EXAM P
EXAM PH
EXAM PHA
EXAM PHAS
EXAM PHASE


Ther it is. I finally managed to type that ridiculously heaved word that brought tons of hardships in my 2 weeks. Like others, I will have an anemic spirit to change. It come off weak but soon darkens as remorse floods into me.

I have already rummaged through my belongings and wisely sorted some of those junks. I am a typical teenager who dreams of a bedroom that coould be an ideal reading place, study area and also  a cool place to hangout alone. YASSS I mean ALONE XD


Call me an introvert. I dont care I am apathetic reader who prefers reading in my own comfortable yet modestly-designed area. Often I would head home to sneak in my rading corner, not a fancy place;an area between my plushy pillows and my hugely-sized bookshelves that I regard as the best piece of furniture  in my room. I lust for a boho look that enables me to relax but still motivates me to pursue my daily life at its peak as a student.

This year successfully knotted me into an unbearable conclusion. urgh.
Shall that be the post of today?

Worthless? I know.

That is the meaning of the post Im trying to instill.

Random... Our heart changes all the time.


XD

Kesal

Salam! Aku rasa dah lama aku tak post benda santai. Like update giteww. But anywho, aku tengah dalam fasa exam.

Di mana korang nampak budak sekolah pegang paper semasa berjalan. Kening macam nak bersambung sebab kerut dalam sangat. Sebenarnya, aku dah dapat rasa results aku akan slack sikit. 
Kesal GILERR DOHH! 

Bila ulangkaji tu macam maki diri sendiri sebab tak belajar awal.

Setiap malam rambut ikal mayang aku akan berubah..

Satu point tu aku hampir rasa future aku akan musnah kalau aku terus camni. Otak aku yang selama ni rilek dah bertimbun masalah macam sampah kat meja aku ni. Bila belajar last minit ni, sume tak kena.... Alahai...

Sekarang ni tinggal 4 subjek akademik yang aku boleh usaha untuk cover ukhrawi yang results dia InshAllah AMAZING! Kalau korang paham...

Walaupun tinggal 4 je, aku tetap berangan bila dapat senyum camni... Hmmmm...

Kau tengok yang pakai tudung hitam berenda putih macam minah sesat tu. Senyum punya lah luas... Rindu nak senyum giteww...


Sesal dah tak gunakan, jadi bagi yang masih berlengah tu pergi lah kerjakan apa yang patut sebelum korang menyesal cam aku ni... Dan tak sah kalau aku akhiri dengan kata azimat aku, GOODLUCK! 

Mistake I Commited

Mistake I Commited

To be honest, everyone would have commited a mistake in the past. But this time, as I reflect upon it, it seems to be a silly or regretful one. Despite that I am grateful for its happening since that made me who I am now.

People thought they helped to change me, but no. It is not the incident that acquired me to change, it is the embodiment of it; respecting others.

Growing up I was the kid that talks with no filter and I really mean it. Sometimes, the thought of me saying something passes and the next time I knew was people called me a liar. Its not their fault but I happened to blurt almost everything including if the thought that happen to pass by. Those thoughts included my hopes, lusts, my future actions and etc. Me blurting out did not stop. Now Im trying to shut my thoughts off when speaking to people because it does not only results me in blurting every string of thoughts that pass by but also randomness hence leading my audience to confusion that can knot into a conclusion of me being a liar.

I know I may not be the only one suffering this but shutting my thoughts off is REALLY HARD. I like and enjoy writing so thinking and observing is what I subconsciously do. Its a norm but I am still trying to change.

My fellow friends please do not let people change you even if its for the good, you must do it whole-heartedly to see the difference and goodluck. xx

akurimaujambu. xx

Gagasan Semangat Luarbiasa

9 Oktober 2014


Kadangkala kita yang sudah biasa disakiti akan merasa kekebasan. Kebas, tak mampu untuk merasa kepedihan atau derita. Hanya deraian air mata yang mengalir.

Aku punya hak untuk menarik balik catan semalam. Catan yang aku jadikan inspirasi agar hari yang mendatang bisa aku harungi dengan tabah. Namun, onak itu merapuhkan aku, membingungkan aku lantas menyesatkan matlamatku; untuk mencekalkan semangat. Aku insan lemah tidak punya gagasan tenaga yang boleh menolak aku untuk terus bangkit dengan diri sendiri.

Aku perlukan semangat; semangat yang luarbiasa. Tatkala aku duduk berbuaiakan mimpi memikirkan bahawa aku ini sang legenda penakluk dunia yang mampu mengenggam dunia, aku dipangkah, dicantas menenggelamkan lagi aku yang lemah di dalam takungan toksin.